Credits
Director - Orie McGinness
Producer -Michael Taylor
AD- Lindsay Gorsen
DP - Axia Serradimigni
Camera Operator - Dana Willax
Set Decorator - Alen Stubbs
Casting - Lina Farache
HMU/Wardrobe - Ana Esquivel
Hat Man - Tom Desanto
Female Actor - Valentina Reneff Olson
Male Actor -Kostiantyn Nikulin

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LYRICS

Gonna set fire to myself
Just so I can feel the flames
Standing on the ledge in my head
Jump to see if I would break
So honestly there’s only so much I can take
No apologies
Now I’m laughing at the mess I made
So numb underneath
Only feel something when I bleed

These scars all over my skin
Remind me I’m a masochist
My heart’s beaten at best
Could call me an optimist
My thoughts never make sense
It’s better if I don’t exist
Each day I lay in my bed
And wonder why
Am I like this
Why am I like this

Carved the verse into my arm
Just so I could feel the pain
Always knew right from the start
I’d be my own worst enemy
Self sabotage has always been my best friend
No I don’t know if I could ever let me win
These scars all over my skin
Remind me I’m a masochist
My heart’s beaten at best
Could call me an optimist
My thoughts never make sense
It’s better if I don’t exist
Each day I lay in my bed and wonder why
Am I like this

Now I’m a hazard to my health
Wish I could be somebody else
Screaming why am I like this
No there’s no beauty in the pain
When I’m hear circling the drain
Screaming why am I like this
These scars all over my skin
Remind me I’m a masochist
My heart’s beaten at best

Could call me an optimist
My thoughts never make sense
It’s better if I don’t exist
Each day I lay in bed
And wonder why
Am I like this

Why am I like this
Why am I like this